August 2011
38 posts
My heart skipped a little beat.
Im talking to a girl who plays Snow White at Magic Kingdom. She is from MN she is friends with the girl I met lastnight.
She asked me if I ever thought about trying out to be Snow White or any princess. I said I couldnt cause of my tattoos.
She told the was a shame. Cause I have the PERFECT face for a princess. <3
YEP SUCK ON THAT! That makes me happy!
I finally did it.
So most of you know before I never claimed to be a Christian for a long time. I use to go to church every week from when i was super little to about middle of 9th grade. Thats when I fall away from all of that. The church I went to was a Lutheran church. That church was super judgmental. I started having a lot of issues there when I was in about the end of my 7th grade year. Thats when I started listening to hardcore music going to shows. Listening to heavy music as well. The people at the church started to judge me telling me Im going to hell for wearing band tees & stretching my ears. That the music I listened to wasnt okay. God would look down upon me for living my life in the music scene. And all this stupid stuff. So I turned away from all of that. I was confused and hurt by it all. Also in 9th grade I was sexually confused and dated girls. I was looked down upon for that too.
In about 11th grade I was open to it again. I got new people in my life. I checked out a non denominational l church. I felt not bad there. It wasn’t pushing things down my throat. They excepted anyone and everyone. So thats when I was sorta standing in between. I didn’t know if I was ready to become a daughter of the lord. I was very close then I sorta hit a lot of rough patches in my life.
Once again I fell away. I turned into a hateful person. I was just a total douchebag most of my senior year till about the end of April begging of may when i started growing up and realizing stuff. That was when someone in my life left me for the better.
As life went on I just sorta stood in between again. I didn’t know what to believe I was extremely wishy washy. I have been. Im not afraid to admit that. But I always kept my mind open. I started opening my mind to being a non denominational Christian. I came to realize. Im loved by god even with my piercings, tattoos, & mistakes. I started going to random church nights with Brandon. Having long talks about it with my REAL friends. I came to realize no one will judge me for believing what I believe. I don’t think badly or low of anyone who is against believing. Who is all 666 or any other type of faith they have. Because they still are the same loving person. Im still the same. If anything Im much happier and more positive
It took me a long time to finally let god in my life. I had to do it on my own. It was my choice. Im happy with it. Im still the same. I still love everyone for who they are not what they believe.
